What's the point?

I feel like I've lost my compass. I haven't felt like this since before I entered Second Life. I feel like I am working harder and harder, taking on more tasks each week. I did graphics for a healthcare/business article, I worked on an article we're submitting for a contest and now I may be helping in the data analysis phase of a research project. The next project is probably an NIH grant submission. I'm doing all the odd jobs for the recruiter - - screening the applicants in the 2000+ database, copying, making name badges and schedules and doing anything at any moment of the day she needs it. Oh, and then there is my job to do.

I don't get paid any extra for doing all these tasks, some of which are on someone else's job description but she refuses to do them. What I actually get in return is sabotage and gossip. My boss doesn't support me in any way. Instead, she threatens me.

So here I am working hard and suddenly I don't know why. Even at home, I stare at the computer, like I'm waiting for it to give me a direction and a reason to do anything. My head is full of stories and ideas, but I don't write. What is the point of writing it down? What is the point of doing anything? The harder I've worked, the harder I get to work. There is no reward. There is only rejection and disappointment. I'm very tired, tired of it all.