My Confidantes

This has been an emotionally draining week. You probably guessed there has been something going on with me. After these several months of being your trusted confidante, I have been pouring my heart into your ear and leaning on your shoulder.
I think I am beginning to put some things in perspective, including the SL boyfriend/girlfriend and marriage concepts that have been to puzzling for me. I have been so dense about "virtual love." I realize now it's not necessarily like RL and I have been trying to mold love into something like I have known and understood before. But that's been like putting chicken noodle soup into a cardboard box; the chunky parts are trapped in the box while the liquid part soaks the box and oozes out. When you lift it, the box deforms, drips and leaves a puddle nobody wants to clean up. I'm still stubbornly trying to hold the deforming box in a recognizable shape. I think, with time, I'll be able to let love be what it is and accept it as we have worked it out without the preconceived framework.
This situation reminds me of the movie Meet Joe Black when the old woman says to Joe, "Nice that it happened." It is overwhelming to me, considering I have not been in love since 2000. And, yes, I am the person who had no use for men and virtual love.